Sunday, September 14, 2014

A Note

So, this is it,

Finally we reach at the final stage of our journey. 

What is left now is only a memory of life, a journey to find the truth about love.

There is no sorrow nor anger, in contrary, there is only gratitude for all the love given.

Now it’s about the time for us to choose our own path. An endless path where infinity is the answer.

So, this is it, I guess.

As the waves picked footprints on the beach and take him back to the bosom of the earth, so does the shadow of our journey slowly fading in the wind.

So, this is it, time to say our final adieu to our journey.

Good bye …….

Sunday, May 18, 2014

What's Your Primary Mood Color ?

Your Primary Mood Color is Red
You are a very passionate and fiery person. You have strong emotions, and you don't hold back.
You are bold and quick acting. You aren't afraid to take the first step or make the first move.

You are an attention seeker, and you love to be the center of things. You've learned how to entertain people well.
You are the type of person who the subject of speculation and gossip, and that's fine with you. You like to be talked about.

PS :
Something bothering me about attention seeker, you could not get 100% precise result, could you ?

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Dignity and Hope

It’s easy to feel I hopeful on a beautiful day like today, but there will be dark days ahead of us too, and they’ll be days where you fell all alone, and that’s when hope is needed most, no matter how buried it gets, or how lost you feel, you must promise me, that you will hold on to hope. Keep it alive, we have to be greater than what we suffer. My wish for you, is to become hope, people need that, and even if we fail, what better way is there to live. As we look around here today, and all the people who helped make us who we are, I know it feels like we’re saying goodbye, but we will carry a piece of each other, into everything we do next, to remind us who we are, and if we’re meant to be. I’ve had a great four years with you, I’ll miss you very much. - Gwen's speech at Amazing Spiderman 2

Somebody once said that writing can be one of the tools to mend the wound. But apparently in my case, it did not work, I could not choose the right words, the emotion, the wound suddenly come to the surface, even millions of memories suddenly lined up in the back, waiting to reveal it self, once I start my first sentence.

And suddenly I realized that actually I deceive myself, I did not allow myself to experience the pain, instead I buried all the feeling somewhere in the dark, in the corner, where only the Prince of Darkness could find it.

Only this time, I will not budge, not for a minute, I will deal with it, despite the pain took my whole energy.

As Gwen's said in her graduation speech, I have had great years with you and it's about the time to still hold on to hope. No matter how abstract the hope itself.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

A letter to myself

Dear myself,

It is good to see you finally could make peace with yourself, by accepting the fact that you could not live with the past that you need to give yourself a chance to open yourself to embrace the happiness.

I know that you are still afraid if somebody open their selves to you, if somebody send the signal that they want to know you more. It is okay to still have those kind of feeling, it is part of the healing.

But please trust me, not all people out there is a bad person, there are still a lot of sincere people. You just need to open yourself, by letting them to know you.

Myself, you have the right to enjoy your life, you still have the right to be happy, still have the right to get the affection of the person who really loves you. Thus, do not close your door yet, let it open, until one day you have to close it.

At peace with yourself does not mean dismissed the opportunity given to you. At peace with yourself means let the real you come to the surface.

So myself, do not give up, ask God’s help to guide you. Wish one day, I could see your lovely smile and laugh again.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Genie's lamp - 3 Wishes

Underneath your blackest emotions,
Far above your brightest wishes,
Stands a world for you to hold.

by Samael - Goodreads

‘If you found a magic lamp what 3 wishes would you ask theGenie for? What would each mean to you? No wishing for extra wishes.’

If God gave me those kind of magic lamp, what am going to ask for? Certainly, I am going to ask for happiness, wealth and health. But how do I have to translate these three words into reality?

Nothing is more joyful than to see my two daughters succeed in their life.  They were my world, the purpose of my life in these world.  Will ask nothing only succeed and happiness for my two lovely daughters.

The second wishes is Health. If God will grant me His beautiful love, I will ask Him that when the time comes, I want to die peacefully without having to go through a prolonged illness. Only that simple request, nothing more.

And the last one is Wealth. There are no words that can describe the criteria of riches. Every human being has their own definition of wealth. Well, I don’t ask to become a millionaire, I just ask God to give me the capability to finance myself and my two beautiful daughters.

A wishes without extra wishes …..

What Animal Were You In a Past Life ?

You Were a Peacock

You carry yourself with beauty, dignity, and confidence.
You are able to see the past, present, and future with clarity.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

The Journey Start Here

Life is full of new beginning 
Everyday is a new day
There is no rewind button nor repeat button

Seize the day, enjoy till the last drop

Some time ago, when I was at Aksara Book Store - Plaza Indonesia,  I found an interesting book  to write a line or two lines, everyday for 365 days.

A book that reminds me to get back to my passion - writing. The passion which in the past is the purpose of my life, the passion that for some reason need to be left behind.

And the passion that finally let me write a blog several years ago, a blog that for some reason, need to be abandon for a while.

So, this is it, this is the time to start my own nutshell like before, a place where I can share my thought, a place where I can leave my trail.

Thank you so much for my BFF dearest sister, Fransiska Orris-Beding, who introduced me to this beautiful blog - AYear To Inspire - that inspired me to write again.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Another Quiz - My Birthday Predicts


                                       Your Birthday Predicts You're Independent      
Ever since you were born, you've loved doing your own thing.  
You enjoy puzzles and games. Anything that stretches your mind interests you.
You are a quiet person - often lost in your own thoughts. Others find you completely mysterious. You have so much fun in thinking, dreaming, and planning. You hardly have time for friends.
    What Does Your Birthday Predict About You?

    Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Saturday, February 01, 2014

The Difference Between Courage and Strength

I was in my blog walking morning when I saw a review of Christie's blog, called 'Running on Sober'  when I read that she also have another blog called 'Words for The Weekend', a blog about inspiring words, quote, and I got into these beautiful words, by Unknown Author or by David L. Griffith.

I have gone through a lot of difficulties in my life recently, some still going on and some of it I am able to manage it. I know how hard it is to overcome the difficulties, to stay sober and not to let myself drown in sorrow.

Maybe it is a cliche but I may say that sometimes or if I may say most of the time, just by letting myself in silence and listened to God's voice, it the best medicine for the pain.

The message can be through anything, and words is one of the thousand God's way. Through the beautiful words is how I felt  God deliver His message.

Thus when I read these beautiful words, I feel like God whispered in my ears to stay strong and be brave to start a new journey of my life. A new journey that needs a courage

It takes strength to be certain
It takes courage to have doubts

It takes strength to fit in,
It takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to feel a friend's pain,
It takes courage to feel your own pain

It takes strength to hide your own pains,
It takes courage to show them.

It takes strength to stand guard,
It takes courage to let down your guard.

It takes strength to conquer,
It takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to endure abuses,
It takes courage to stop them.

It takes strength to stand alone,
It takes courage to lean on friend.

It takes strength to love,
It takes courage to be loved.

It takes strength to survive.
It takes courage to live.