Sunday, July 20, 2008

R.I.P.


time to say goodbye - andrea bocelli feat sarah brightman


My father died almost a week ago, in Monday morning, 14 July 2008, at 03.18 AM, where the sun still hiding somewhere, where the rest of the people still in their dream.

I still remember that last Saturday clearly, when my nephew told me that my father seems sick and lost his balance. I got to his room and asked him whether he wanted to go to the doctor. He just said he didn’t want to see the doctor, instead he asked me to buy his favorite balsam.

I still remember he acted so weird on Sunday night, before my helper told me that my father suddenly could not walk. I still helped him put his short even though he insisted that he could do it by his own.

I still remember that day, when after that incidence, I saw him open his door, standing there, and told me not to close his door.

I still remember that day, that morning, when he finally decided to go to God’s home.

I couldn’t forget his face, his beautiful smile, his cold body, and I just standing there felt nothing, only the emptiness inside myself.

I wish it’s only a dream, I wish I still can hear the voice of his blender, I wish I still can see him sit in front of me during breakfast or dinner, I wish we still fight for the newspaper, I wish he still open the door for me when am back from the office. But it's only my wish, God has whispered in my ears that it's not a dream and it's about Time to Say Good Bye.

Yes, I know it's about Time to Say Good Bye but I can’t, somewhere inside myself, still hope that it’s only a dream ….

10 comments:

johnorford said...

i'm really sorry to hear that. in ireland we share happy stories about loved ones when they've passed away. so if you wanna share, feel free...

Rob Baiton said...

My condolences to you and your family.

Silverlines said...

Oh Dear ..
I was wondering why the absence in your posting, never did expect any sad news.
My deep condolences to you and your family and a lot of big warm hugs to you ...

*Hugs*

accordingtod said...

'ta... turut berduka cita yah. be strong. my thoughts are with you.

GJ said...

So sorry for your loss.

tere616 said...

johnorford : How beautiful. I wish I can let go my feeling by share it in writing.

Rob : Thank you so much for the condolence

Silverlines : The absent was due to my vacation, and when I was ready to write then suddenly my dad passed away. Thank you so much dear. Just wish that I can realize that this is not a dream

Accordingtod : Din, thanks ya.

GJ : Thank you so much for the condolence.

Emo Scene Layouts said...

hey i'll pray for you and your family.

tere616 said...

Emo : thank you for the pray

Ecky said...

My deepest condolences to you and your family.

Big hugs for you, hugs

tere616 said...

Ecky : Thank you for the condolences.