Monday, July 31, 2006

Why I recommend "Decalage Horaire (Original French Version with English Subtitles)"

As typical French movie, there is only the leading actor and the supporting actor. The story itself, a classic and universal one, “LOVE”.

LOVE in “Jet Lag’ is something that happened in our “love” journey, where the attraction came from something in common, from the lack of understanding, from the small thing that occurred within the ordinary people.

LOVE in “Jet Lag” showed that the “need to be love” came through the similarity in thought, came through the appreciation of our hard working, the appreciation of our dream.

LOVE in “Jet Lag” taught us to be honest to our own feeling, to be brave to say “I need you”, to be brave to say “I want you”.

Bush - Monday Morning Email ...

George Bush has a heart attack and dies. Obviously, he goes to hell where the devil is waiting for him.

“I'm not sure what to do," says the devil. "You're on my list but I have no room for you. You definitely have to stay here, so I'm going to have to let someone else go. I’ve got three folks here who weren’t quite as bad as you. I’ll let one of them go, but you have to take their place. I’ll even let you decide who leaves.”

George thought that sounded pretty good, so he agreed.

The devil opened the first room. In it was Richard Nixon and a large pool of water. He kept diving in and climbing out, over and over. Such was his fate in hell.

No!” George said. "I don't think so. I'm not a good swimmer and don't think I could do that all day long.”The devil led him to the next room.
In it was Tony Blair with a sledge hammer and a room full of rocks. All he did was swing the hammer, time after time.

"No!" I've got this problem with my shoulder. I would be in constant agony if all I could do was break rocks all day. “ commented George.

The devil opened a third door.In it, George saw Bill Clinton lying on the floor with his arms staked over his head, and his legs staked in spread-eagle pose. Bent over him was Monica Lewinsky, doing what she does best.

George Bush looked at this in disbelief for a while and finally said, “Yeah, I can handle this.” The devil smiled and said, “OK. Monica, you’re free to go !”

I received this email at my personal address then I forwarded to my office email address. Sent this mail to my friends ..and only 1 person who replied my mail and said “It was funny !”. I wonder what happened with the other ? Are they lost their appetite to laugh ? It’s been a month and seems that every body tried to behave, wearing their innocent mask.

Maybe because today is “the well known hate Monday”, everybody was in their weekend daydreaming. Maybe because of that classic reason. there are no sharing stories about weekend, movie, music, books, children…or even a traffic jam.

Maybe because we were in the rush this morning …. Maybe …Maybe ….Maybe…


I’m having a cold. Somebody says that it was the signage that my mind could not compromise with something happened in the office. Well, maybe … ;

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Same taste, Same Place, Different People

** Write on Saturday Morning **

It seems that the Friday Nightmare took my energy until the last. I woke up this morning with my lovely migraine again. I have to swallow the red panadol pill to cure the migraine otherwise; I could not anything just lying in my bed.

Yeah…. I had a Friday Blues. It started on Thursday evening during my lunchtime when my cell phone played the lovely SMS song. The message was from my boss, informed us that he wanted us to prepare the presentation of strategy and plan for 2007. I could not believe my eyes at that time and I don’t think that everybody too.

The SMS came on Thursday evening and I only have one night to think the 2007 strategy and plan !!!! I called and told him that I could not prepare the strategy since he never shared his 2007 dream. He just laughed and said that …. He only need my dream nothing else.

So … I worked and dreamed like crazy on the rest of Thursday. Tried to do my best to take my dream of the customer care. Slept only 4.5 hours just to prepare the presentation ….

But .. what did I have on that Friday Blues evening ? When I showed him my best dream, he just smiled and said that his intention today was not discussing our plan but he just want to do the brainstorming.

What a f*….; I worked as crazy on Thursday near could not wake up early on Friday morning and he just simply said that his “magical” word, something that I have reminded him on that Thursday evening….

Anyway,…Boss is always right, no one can ever say that the quotation was wrong. The brain storming started with the unbelievable discussion of him and his product development guy. It was stopped after I told him that al of the fact that had been mentioned by the product development guy already stated in the research.

Then it started again like a never ending Alice in The Wonderland story. And it happened again, I have to remind him if he showed his doubt. Told him several times that we should use the result of the survey. I thank God that finally it ended at 06.30 pm.

I was exhausted after the meeting finished. I lost my oxtail soup Hotel Borobudur appetite. I wanted to run away .. but he insisted his down lined to accompany him.

As predicted, the hot topic of dinner discussions are about the “crème de la crème” of business owner in Indonesia, the Who and Who’s, something that I never give a damn on it. Then one of my colleagues gave his BS talk about one of my friend in credit card industry, … I tried as hard not to give him my cynical comment.

What a nightmare !!!!!

Suddenly I regret my plan that I’ve made last night. Especially when I remembered my boss comment on my plan of the SLA, something that he has not read yet.

Suddenly I miss my old time with my friends; the dinner that we had at the same place last year. No business topic, no audit findings topic, no project and budget discussion, none, ZERO. We just laughed like hell. Oh… I miss them a loooottttt.

Oxtail Soup with the same taste, the same place but with different people …..

God was so kind with me, lectured me about Heaven and Hell that night......

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Between Films and Macaroni - Cheese - Ham, Home Made

It’s about time to say good-bye to my lovely Week End. After spent it with 4 movies, my daughters stuff – their books, pencil, pen, eraser – and Macaroni – Cheese – Ham home made.

After the exhausted weekend last week, this 2nd weekend (after my coming back in the corporation world) felt like in heaven. Watched my DVD’s list that I’ve planned and listed in allconsuming, baked Macaroni – Cheese and Ham for my daughters- their request since 2 weeks ago and clean up my messy bookshelves., are something that I’ve dreamed for.

Browse the accessories with my young adult daughter, listened to her comment of The Old Town Jakarta – she told me that next time she would ask me to take her picture with the old building as a background - . Spotted blushes on her face when the young handsome boy smiled at her (the worst part in having a teenage girl – getting old fast).

Shocked with my little daughter memories of The Old Town Jakarta, happy when she ate her shrimp like hell, and smiled when she examined her new math book.

All that kind of lovely things that I miss. The things that I worried when I had decided to enter the corporation world again, my time with my daughters and my own pleasure.

I was worrying when on the 1st week of July I couldn’t find time for my own. Have to do my duty as a member of one big family, went to a wedding party - something that I hate to do, because of the preparation took about 1.5 hours and spend only 45 minutes at the party – smile to everybody, which is most of the time I forgot the name of my relatives. Could not eat much since that kebaya makes me like a lady, could not laugh out loud – have to behave – otherwise all the aunties and uncles will give their “odd” look. Then went to my father in law’s house, wait my daughter play with her cousin, and couldn’t take a shower because I didn’t bring a change. While on the 2nd day, helped my nephew finished her advertising task, designed her first add for a magazine, before helped my sister in law sent medicines to her son and had lunch at patty crappy (crab black pepper at Kelapa Gading – named as patty crappy because Dora the Explorer name her crab’s friend as it is). Went home late and could not do anything. Just a regretful feeling … did not have a chance to relax, did something of my own.

Lucky that last Monday all kids still enjoy their holiday, otherwise my last Monday would be a nightmare.

But this weekend, as I said before, I was happy …. Felt as if I’ve been charged and get ready for the busy Monday. Ready for half day meeting, half day full listening to a company’s survey for IPO preparation, and 1 hour relax –lunch at the cafeteria or at my desk.

So, if I have to scale my weekend, the 3rd weekend in July, with 1to 5 scale and 5 is the highest, then I’m going to scale it 5.

A smile of happy mother when her daughters told her to save her Macaroni - Cheese and Ham for their breakfast tomorrow morning.

Beyond My Expectation

It’s beyond my expectation. I thought that I would see “Don Johnston” – the main character – reflected his life as womanizer and how he learned his mistakes after he found out that one of his ex-woman was carry his baby when they split.

Something that I could learn and share it with my friends … as we always do when we have watched a movie.

In fact, I could not even get anything. Not even a word. Yeah, automatically, because this is a quite movie, where we have to read “Don’s reflection” through his eyes, his trip, his ex-woman reaction and his trip,

The main idea of the story is good and I don’t expect that the end should be like “Hollywood” movies. Therefore I’m expecting that the strugling of the main character reflected in the scene but apparently it’s not.

I’m dissapointed

Friday, July 14, 2006

Law of Power - Part II

I believe that this morning, everybody wake up with the feeling of relief, because it’s Friday.
Yeah, even though Friday it’s not the last day God created the world, but for all, Friday it’s the day where we can take our lunch time longer than other day (… it’s not apply for me ..), where we would spend our night life more relax because no meeting to be worried; where the dress code is "smart-casual" and people looks fabulous and gorgeous.

But not for me …, today is the first day I practice the 1st law of power.
Today, I have to present my strategy based on my two weeks observation.
Therefore, as soon as I heard the sounds of cock boast, my brain start with preparing the sentence that I will use when presenting my strategy.

Try to remember the conclusion of the 1st chapter :
Avoid outshining the master. All superiority is odious, but the superiority of a subject over his prince is not only stupid, it is fatal. This is a lesson that the stars in the sky teach us – they may be related to the sun, and just as brilliant, but they never appear in her company
Baltasar Gracian, 1601 – 1658

Therefore, you cannot worry about upsetting every person you come across, but you must be selectively cruel. If your superior is falling star, there is not to fear from outshining him. Do not be merciful – your master had no such scruples in his own cold-blooded climb to the top. Gauge his strength. If he is weak, discreetly hasten his downfall: Outdo, out charm, out smart him at key moments. If he is very weak and ready to fall, let nature take its course. Do not risk outshining a feeble superior – it might appear cruel or spiteful. But if your master is firm in his position, yet you know yourself to be the more capable, bide your time and be patient. It is the natural course of things that power eventually fades and weakens. Your master will fall someday, and if you play it right, you will outlive and someday outshine him.

….. the end of 1st Law of Power – Never Outshine Your Master …

Anyway, it is still Friday, so no matter I have to be a person that it’s not 100 % “me”, I still have to say “Thanks God its Friday” ….. Let’s sing and shake our junk !!!!!

Hm ... I think I have to cancel my "After Office Hour Appointment" with my friend, my driver has to go home early and am too lazy to drive, especially if I have to spend the night somewhere at south of Jakarta.

I think it's better if I just spend it at the cozy cafe, smell the scent of capuccino and have a nice chit-chat ...
Just go swimming ... and let my mind relax with the coldness of the water ...

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Law of Power*

Always make those above you feel comfortably superior.
In your desire to please or impress them, do not go too far in displaying your talents
Or your might accomplish the opposite – inspire fear and insecurity.
Make your masters appear more brilliant than they are and you will attain the heights of power

….Law no. 1 – Never outshine your master - Power – Robert Greene

I read the above lines over and over again. Can’t believe my eyes !
I was in the middle of discussing my strategy for my department with my friend when he reminded me that this time I have to change my strategy in dealing with my superior. I have to be wise this time and manage my talk, my word, every single thing. He knew that it would be a nightmare for me to act like that but have no other choice that was the only way to win the game. Be a politician in the corporation world.

He reminded me of my two years in prison several years ago, how my superior felt insecure because of me, how my superior tortured me like hell, before finally he got fired because of his dumbness and everybody realized who’s the cause of all the matters in the office.

I’m lucky that I have friend who reminds me to watch my step, to prevent me from another “killing fields”.

But I think GOD has His own plan. He sent me to that “Killing Fields” to felt the suffer, to taught me to be wise. Or (my favorite things) to finish the unfinished life of my past life, something that I have to pay in my life.

I bought that book the day before Bali Bombing. It was my last day in Manila, after attended Asia customer service workshop of my company, when I decided to buy that book. Brought it at home and put it in my library without opened the plastic cover.

I let the book shined his “new” cover to others book in my bookshelves. Until last night, when I saw that book, suddenly I felt the desire to read that book and stunned with the statement of “Never Outshine Your Master”.

I haven’t finish the first chapter, my little daughter told me that I slept like a baby last night, even I slept earlier than her.

I was in a rush this morning, when I spot that orange book at my bed .. and the feeling of gratefulness spread.

I don’t want my life ended like Fouquet, just because of the insecurity feeling of his Master.

When the evening began, Fouquet was at the top of the world,
By the time it had ended, he was at the bottom
Voltaire, 1694 – 1778
*Written on the way to the office

Monday, July 10, 2006

With This Ring

Finally I know the place where I belong
Took me a while for my heart to find a home
Now I am living what only I have dreamed
I've been completed
Finally I know the meaning of true love
Forever kind, never failing throughout time
Perfect communion of body, soul and mind
Trusting for always

I have been patient in searching
Now I'm ready to receive
All of the goodness that your mercy
Has created just for me

Finally I am committing all my life
Willing to die for this beauty of my side
Here at this moment two people fall in line
We are uniting one purpose and one mind
Binding together the love we cannot bide
So glad I waited
Now all I can say is
Finally I

..... Finally, Daryl Coley (Duawne Starling) from With This Ring

Every time I hear this song, every time I ask myself "How can we keep this "Finally" word still the same. How can I keep that dream alive ? How can I keep "you're the one as the only one in my life" ..... and never fall .....

Sunday, July 09, 2006


I was on the way home when my SMS alert rang. The news took my breath away, “our friend was hospitalized due to stroke. We could not visit him for a while. He was in ICCU.” I called the sender and he informed me that it happened two days ago.

Phew, based on my experience, there are only two options if he recovered. I felt sad. It’s been more than six months since I met him during my business trip from Bali. My friend told me that based on the rumors he did not feel happy with his previous company. The pressure was high.

I have not met him after he returned to that “previous company”. However, as long as I can remember, every time I met the people from that “previous company”, the comment I have is always the same. The pressure was high; they have to work long hours sometimes till 02 AM.

Yeah, I could understand it; I was in the same boat before. The pressure was high and at the same time, I did not feel happy. I could not let my stress out. I’ve got my vertigo and 6 months suffererd from allergic (my doctor told me that it was because of stress).

My friend warned me to view my life-style since it could be the cause of that “un-invited” killer. He suspected that our friend stroke was due his life-style also.

I felt sorry for my friend and his family. He's young and still have a lot of energy. He's not old enough to suffer from that illness.

Suddenly, I remember the advice that I’ve received at my first day in my coming back to corporation world, “Take it easy, and don’t involve your emotion there. Don’t raise your voice when you have to reprimand your staff, just transmit it through action.”

I thought it was the only one. Nevertheless, GOD wanted me to make a reflection on that Friday. I just 10 minutes arrived at home after pick my daughter up from her grandpa’s house, when my driver’s wife called my mother and informed her that her father in law just passed away.

I felt guilty because I was mad at him before. He supposed to go to Jatinegara station but he made his own assumption and go to Gambir. I was mad because he did not learn that the distance between Gambir and my office only 5 minutes; while the distance between Gambir and my father in law’s house about half an hour. If I want him to go to Gambir then I'd better stay at my office instead of went to my father in law's house. I felt guilty because I did not give him the instruction clearly and made my assumption that he knew already.

I felt guilty because of that misunderstanding made him went home late. I usually arrive at home around 08.00 pm but that last Friday I arrived at 11.00 pm. And right at 11.00 pm, my driver’s father passed away.

He was on the way home when his wife called my mom. The only thing we could do was warned her not to call his husband since he was on the way home.

Once again the sad feeling strike me. The only word I have left on that day was IF.
IF my friend did not move back to that company maybe, he did not suffer of stroke.
IF my driver did listen to my instruction carefully maybe, he could have a change to meet his father.

IF .. and only IF…
The only word left when we regret.

Friday, July 07, 2006

A Quick Glance

I felt absolutely exhausted last night. The only thing I did was updated my journal and stop by to some of my neighbour's blog.

Couldn't sleep well because my daughter and her cousin played with the internet in my room. The reason was because I have to bring my laptop to the office. While in fact it was just a waste since I spent all of my day at JHCC on the Indonesian Celllular Show for "Meeting the Customer" program sponsored by Kompas.

Will update the result of program in separate blog.

Wake up late this morning and couldn't write more because I only have 15 minutes to check my personal mail.

Anyway....Thanks God It's Friday ... the end of my first week of my coming back in the corporation world.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Men and Women are from Different Planet

We had this discussion in my English class last Tuesday. The opinion stands from 1 (agree strongly) up to 5 (disagree strongly).

The statement stated below and my opinion is in the bracket.

1. Men are better drivers than women (5)
2. Women are more faithful in relationship (4)
3. Girls usually mature more quickly than boys (1)
4. Women are inefficient in the business world because they tend to bee too emotional (3)
5. Men and women are born with identical natural abilities (1)
6. Nature has given women so much power that the law has very wisely given them little (1)
7. Men find it difficult to express their emotions except when their football team scores a goal (3)
8. If more women were in positions of power, there would be fewer wars in the world (3)
9. It is more important for women to take care of their appearance than it is for men (1)
10.Men are from Mars and women are from Venus (1)

The guy in my class automatically agrees strongly with statement number one. As can predict, ask every man in the world and they always claim that they were much better drivers than women were. While in fact, not the entire guy in the world has the ability like women.

Same as women are more faithful in relationship. Ask every woman in the world and her answer will be agreed strongly. While the reality, not all women in the world act like that.

I strongly agree that Men and Women are from different planet. The way they talk, the way the handle the problem, their logic and emotion, shows the difference. But even though they were from different planet, they still can talk with a little bit adjustment.

Like the IT guy always said if we would like to buy another different system platform, “don’t worry, both of them can communicate”.

Back to the discussion, the only guy who has to stand of himself, finally stated that it was no point to discuss the difference. He found it difficult to handle those six women. LOL.

So if we know already the difference, why there's no changes in the invention of quiz related to men and women relationship ?

Therefore the answer is > It’s enough for today. I felt exhausted. Maybe because of my six months relaxation day, my body and mind get used with it. So when the rythim changed, they need time to adjust it.

Yeah ... compare the one day full of meeting and one full day with the artisan in Bali; for my mind and body, still the one full day with the artisan in Bali are nicer and less stressfull.

I’m sleepy ….miss my pillow already…

Hope I could wake up earlier tomorrow and do my jog again (no progress of my weight still need 2 kg to reduce).

PS :
Suddenly I miss my relaxation day, met the artisan, explained the process to the buyer, watch my list of movies to see, read my book :)

The day after

Can't believe it, I've still got my headache. I thought after I take a rest then the pain will vanish. Phew... 2 days in a row, going to be 3 days in a row, run to another meeting after meeting, have to understand all that kind of telco technical term, deal with staff problem....

Wish my laptop will be ready so I can work and start communicating through mail.

Read some of Treespotter blog, smile a lil bit read the cartoon posted in his blog, check email and Now... I'm ready to start my 3rd day.

Here's the review of yesterday.

My second day at my new office…Tuesday

I can’t believe it, I have to bring my own laptop to my new office. The company didn’t have the spare. LOL, we lived in the Hi Tech era and computer is one of the “basic” things that they should have.

Little bit shocked for a while, but anyway, this is my other adventure, so why bother. As my old friend said to me last night, “Wow, smart move. I made a mistake when I joined that company. I always work long hours and when I wanted to change it, it was too late. Good …keep maintain that pace.”

Yeah…this time, I want to have a better quality in my life. I believe if I use my time effectively then I don’t have to spend all my day in the office, with my mind fly to “home”. No more bring the office problem at home.

People can change. Yes, I have changed, I changed my value of seeing the “world”, seeing my life.

Jogging 30 minutes, read the newspaper, chit-chat with my little daughter for a while…then on the way to the office.

Start a meeting with the VP Marketing, met with the CEO, got another task, and start 2007 plan.

Learned new things about Content Service Management and Content Provider, the new "term".

Time flies so fast ; suddenly it's already 5 pm. Call the VP Marketing for staff issue tomorrow morning, remind the staff for Wednesday morning meeting, then ran away to my English class.
Miss my English class, miss communicate in English, Miss my group....
We have a discussion about Man and Woman, what a funny and interesting discussion, will share it later. Too bad that we have to end it ... already 7.15 pm.

Finally I can finish my task for Tuesday .... time to go home and take a rest.

But the "smart prediction" driver took a wrong way, instead of took a toll road through Kuningan, he took a tool road through Sudirman. Oh my GOD !, I was too tired to argue so I take my best position to sleep......