Premonition

When someone we love passes away,
We ache, but we go on;
Our dear departed would want us to heal,
After they are gone.
Grief is a normal way to mend
The anguish and pain in our hearts;
We need time to remember and time to mourn,
Before the recovery starts.

He’s in a better place right now
Than he’s ever been before;
All pain is gone; he’s now at rest;
Nothing troubles him anymore.
It’s we who feel the burden of
Our sadness and our grief;.
We have to cry, to mourn our loss,
Before we get relief.
We know we’ll reconnect with him ….

The feeling was so strong, my heart told me that the time will come, that my dad will end his journey sooner, not even more than 1 hour. Then it happened, in half an hour, he’s gone.

The same feeling came again last Tuesday morning before I left Surabaya, back to my hometown with my mom. My heart, once again told me that my uncle will leave soon, the fastest was the next day after I left Surabaya. Then it happened, this morning my mom told me that she’s got text from her sister in law, my uncle had ended his journey.

I try not to listen to my heart; I try not to question my feeling, since I believe that no one can predict someone period of life.

Am asking God, but this time, I didn’t hear anything from Him, not even a single word. Should I believe what my heart told me ? Should I question my feeling ?

If I listened to my heart, If I questioned my feeling, If I’m not so stubborn, then I could say my final goodbye to my uncle too, that finally I could bring her sister to meet him.

If God’s is the answer of our fate, of our future, then why He create the feeling that we call as Premonition ? To protect us ? to prevent us from sadness ?

The question that no one can answer, only God, but He choose to keep quiet this time.