I wish…I really wish that I have the spirit to continue designing my company website.
The temptation to quit is so big.
It seems that I put a lot of “goals” on my plate and put them all as “number 1 priority”.
I never learned to prioritize..something that I always failed, something that all my friends reminds me to do.
It’s almost 2 months, and haven’t put anything ….only a sketch.
I hate myself…!!!!
Maybe I push myself too hard, maybe I want to proof something to my self.
When I told my colleague that I want to start my own company and quit from my job, she told me that for sure I will lost my knowledge of technology, that I will not understand anything, or in other word I’ll be a “dumb” person.
I hated her by saying that, I hated her because of her mean opinion.
Then starting from that day, I told myself that I have to proof something, proof to that person, to my lunch time gang, that I’m still the person that they know.
What a stupid idea !! But I can’t quit, I’m too arrogant to do that.
Oh GOD, please…give me a chance to finish it…