And we can do nothing to avoid them.
But they are there for a reason.
Only when we have overcome them
Will we understand why they were there
(The Fifth Mountain – Paulo Coelho)
My dearest friend,
I read that above quotation from “The Fifth Mountain – Paulo Coelho”.
When suddenly I remember the troubles that has been a topic of discussion between my right and left heart. The trouble that makes me ask God for the explanation, the trouble that makes me flew to other part of the world to find the answer. The troubles that I’ve put in the corner of my heart.
I remember all the pain, hatred and anger that I have to deal before finally I make a peace with them. The struggle to win the war, the war that had left a mark in my life.
A mark that hardly can be notice.
I remember the years that I have to live with it, the night that I’ve spent with tears, and do the bargaining with God. The worries that I have to deal. The worries of the sake of “reputation”, the “name”.
I remember it all, my dear friend …
But this time, the pain, the anger, the hatred is not like the old days.
Finally, I could realize it and detach that feeling ….
If you ask me how … the answer is simple, because of LOVE.
When LOVE introduces himself, through his thousand faces, beautiful quotation, stories, books, songs and friendship, I knew that I must give him a CHANCE.
A chance to understand, a chance to see from different angle, a chance to troubles to explained all what his done to me.
I let my right and left heart fight. I let them put their own “secret” on the table, let them argue…
Are they vanishing ?
No, I have to admit it to you that the suffering is not vanish, sometimes in the middle of the darkness, suffering came and visit me, just to remind me of the “pain”, so I would be able to detach that.
My dearest friend,
Please give LOVE a chance to build the castle of peace in your heart, so you would be able to see the troubles from different angle.
Let LOVE shown to you her beauty through the faces of the one that you love; let LOVE whisper her magic through the eyes of the one that comes through your dream…
So one day, you could say how much you love them; unashamed of showing your feelings, because they were there, always there, even though you hid them.
And me from the distance will smile and say, “I’m so proud of you” ...